Megan Again: “You Say You Want A Resolution…”

Megan Again: “You Say You Want A Resolution…”
​By Megan Wirts

Every year for the past two years my New Year’s resolution has been to keep my white winter coat clean.

As I sit here looking at it and I see all of the smudges on the sleeves and the red lipstick that I accidently smeared on the collar, I am reminded that I suck at keeping New Year’s resolutions. Yet, I keep on making them. I mean, why stop now, right?
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We all make them. Those resolutions that we promise to keep and vow that this year it will be different. I have been making New Year’s resolutions since before I could even pronounce the word. I remember one year...

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when I was around 9 or 10 years old, I resolved to only eat Cheerios for breakfast every day. That lasted 2 days until my mom bought Count Chocula. How could I  say no to that sugary goodness?
 
This year seems to be no different, but it hasn’t stopped me from trying.

On New Year’s Eve, this year, I sat and thought about resolving to give up some not so healthy habit, like my deep love for coffee. I thought maybe I could just have one cup a day. Then I woke up on January 1st and I was in desperate need for some coffee and one cup wasn’t going to do it. I’m sure I wasn’t alone in this.

“Perhaps,” I thought to myself later that day, “I can start doing yoga every morning like I tell people I do.” Well, it is currently the 3rd day of this year and I have only done the corpse pose one time while contemplating how I was going to get up off the floor. If you are unfamiliar with the corpse pose, it’s the one where you lay on the floor spread out on your back like you are dead, it’s pretty easy to do. I suppose I will call that one a win so far, I’ll take what I can get.

Then I looked around my house and decided I needed to get organized. “I will clean out all the drawers, the pantry, the closets and cupboards! This is it, I’m going to have a nice and tidy home.!”, I said with determination.

Three hours later the entire contents of my kitchen junk drawer were on the table and I was exhausted. So, I just dumped it back into the junk drawer.  I will consider that a half win because I managed to find $2.00 and the tape I lost while wrapping Christmas presents.

I also considered watching less television and reading more books. Then I saw that This is Us will have a new episode soon and I also need to catch up on The Walking Dead and I want to re-watch The Crown…so…that’s not really going to happen.

Now, I am contemplating learning how to make donuts or try new pie recipes. Maybe I will learn how to make a crème brulee or some other kind of fancy pastry that I don’t even know exists yet. This I can see me attempting. I have no idea if I will be good at it, but I’m going to try.

I could just give up on making resolutions and resolve to not resolve anything at all.
Is that still a resolution? It could be.

Regardless of the specifics, I suppose I just want to continue improving myself and my life, whatever that may look like. I want to be able to see what beauty and joy I have right in front of me.

And I want to see it while eating some delicious pie in an organized kitchen after I did my morning yoga and binged watched some show on Netflix while drinking coffee.

One can dream, right?

Cheers to 2017!


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